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first birthdays and the "smash cake"

10/3/2013

When we remove ourselves from living in a place of duality I understand that eating sugar or any other "bad" food doesn't matter especially for Harper BUT I have no interest in giving her refined sugars for as long as I possibly can and with her 1 year birthday coming up I am feeling more pressure than ever to let her experience sugar for the first time in the form of cake and frosting, now convienently marketed as the "smash cake". Clever being that came up with that. My thoughts? Every day at supper Harper is making her dinner a "smash cake". there is no need to go out and buy a specially designed and marketed "smash cake".

Anyway, I have been on the hunt for a recipie that didn't have sugar as the main ingredient for a yummy dessert but to my despair I can't find anything so I will have to create my own, my very own, smash cake. Sweetner being fruit and honey because Harper will be one and honey is safe for the kiddo, and the "smash" homemade whip cream, the trick a tantalizing vessel to hold the strawberry syrup and whip cream that the adults and the other kids will love.

Update on Cutting up the Plastic

7/25/2013

Since cutting up my credit cards, losing that dependency and not borrowing from my future paycheck an incredible shift has taken place. I physically felt the shift last Sunday but the act on my part to drop into this place was cutting up the credit cards.

Carrying all my spending money as cash has been awesome. To physically hand over money to pay for something that I 'need' is fun. To run out of cash a few days before payday is a bummer but it's okay.

BUT since Sunday when I physically felt money. I had a phone call for a job offer. I found a job opportunity that would be perfect for my situation, applied and ranked number 2 in the written portion, my mother in law gave us veggies as I was wondering how I would get fresh produce on the table, and she said she would drop more off today (I did not ask). I was hungry at work yesterday and Summer brought me a cookie (and emotional support). Milio's just dropped off a sub and 6 cookies, for FREE, just because. Placenta clients are coming and doula clients for friends.

What is this? This is trusting life. That it's going to be awesome. That the spiral will support us. I want to practice yoga again, consistently, can't budget into my excess cash spending. Went to yoga-- that day they posted a "trade" shift and now I get free yoga for cleaning.

Mostly what this is is: respect. For what we actually have. To respect our lives and the situation we are in presently goes a long way in clearing the space for movement into the direction you ask for. Ask and you shall receive is true when there is respect for life presently.

This is only the beginning.

Giving up Fear, Giving up Anger

7/2/2013

What does it mean to no longer fight for something I would've easily taken a bullet for? I am not totally sure at this moment considering this feeling is just hours old.

Sweet Mary was making a 4th of July dinner for our family tonight. BBQ, Brats you know the usual factory farmed animal stuff and she looked at me and said "you probably won't eat any of this" but does Derrick want some? I said sure. I was relieved that my food choices were recognized but at what cost? I couldn't enjoy the food prepared from a place of love.

A place of love. To speak from a place of love, to cook from a place of love, to live from a place of love negates the negativity of the words, food, and life. The industrial food system I still choose to not be a part of with my money or energy but I also choose to sit with the idea of eating industrial food when it is prepared with love. What does that mean? I am not totally sure at this moment.

What I do know from the last few hours is that to let go of fear and anger of anything only allows more space for love. A heavy burden is lifted. I wonder if letting go of all fear and anger is possible? If so, what do I fight for, what do I believe in, how do I demonstrate my individualism, how do I relate to people in a social setting, who do I get mad it, etc... Why do I feel that being angry/fearful towards someone or something is what defines me?

Yes, fear and anger are coupled together on purpose because you can't have one without the other.

angry at the food industry:fearful of the manipulation

I am no longer choose to angry at the food industry. It is a system that is created to serve a purpose. It is a system I choose not to be part of and it is a system I choose to no longer be angry or fearful at. To let go of this anger and fear that I have been carrying feels empty.

RECEIVE, RECEIVE, RECEIVE (I am on my knees begging)

6/28/2013

Ahhh... another piece that I have heard so many times and have not given the concept any energy past "yea. I do that. I have no problem receiving."

Yesterday I realized how delusional that was. It is harder, yet simpler, safer to be independent, needing help from no one, taking care of myself that was the ultimate goal. Depend on no one, get help from no one, I am able, strong, American, independent, I can do it ALL. Ask for help?, only in the worst case scenario.

Yesterday a friend reached out and asked for help. Have you experienced how good it feels to be asked to help? It filled me with love and warmth and all I wanted to do was help and I offered in the only way I could at that moment with frozen food and a car. Though each was declined I felt the power in receiving by giving. The offer was enough to give her the support she needed to find the momentum to go.

Today a friend's mom passed. I want nothing more than to comfort her in a way that I know will bring peace, relaxation and the feeling of unconditional support: food. I am being met with a strong resistance.

I feel most people can relate to the "oh, it's okay. I am fine. I will be fine. Thanks for the offer but. No, I don't need anything. No, I have taken care of it. There is really nothing you can do to help"

In the recent past I was terrified to receive love because really this is what it is whether it is by way of food, affection, event planning, etc. So, I get it but today I am SCREAMING from the depths of my soul, pleading that she, I, you can open yourselves to receive love, kindness, compassion, truth, respect, you, me.

What a shift this would be. What a shift this is. So, in the true American spirit I am challenging you to open up and RECEIVE love once a day or at least once today.

Strawberry Jelly "goo" w/ Chia Seeds

6/25/2013

I screwed up all of my attempts to make jelly this weekend so I improvised with chia seeds for a thickening agent. In the end my recipe most closely followed this but I used 4 # of strawberries, 6 cups of sugar (which can totally be reduced but since i was attempting "real" jam first this is the point when I ran out of sugar) and added a cup of chia seeds after the simmer, let the "goo" cool on the stove and than put it in the fridge. Tastes delicious, lots of fiber, protein and yumminess!

Life is Interpretation

6/25/2013

Life is interpretation. It is no more and no less. I am connected to this truth and facing this truth's reality is humbling. It is inspiring and terrifying. On the surface it seems to degrade the meaning of life and the importance of it but in actuality it is embellishing the expansiveness of the experiences we can have when we are on this planet.

To accept life as interpretation is to know that everyday can be happy, fun, amazing, sad, embarrassing, scary, enlightening, boring, etc...

It is, like the previous post, to let go of all the rules.

There Are No Rules

6/17/2013

So hard to grasp a concept so far out as not having to live by any rules. To let the mind go and consider this is an amazing challenge. To live this seems impossible. AND... this is so much more than paying taxes and stopping at red lights. I am not talking organizational systems. I am speaking about rules that are indoctrinated from within my being. Rules I own because I believe I need to choose a criteria, a mission, an idea to fight for a system to live in. Rules I have set up for myself since birth, perhaps before birth. I am scared and I am liberated. I ate a white bread sandwich when I could've passed entirely or had whole wheat. So simple this seems but so challenging because I had to fight the internal dialogue and rewire mind patterns. Writing this I understand it is not gong backwards and connecting old energetic synapses but unwebbing my mind to think on a greater platform, evolving to a place of non judgement and trust of the soul, the body, the human, and the oneness.

Undefining who I am, letting go of the belief system that I currently own is necessary to expand my experiences. It is the process of opening my mind and soul to embrace and hold space for incoming souls that are rewiring the human template, evolving the human form into an energetic system that will operate from love and truth, authenticity, and embody respect for all energetic systems on this planet, in this galaxy, forward and out to our star neighbors. Returning home. Completing the fluid and frictionless circle.

More to come...

Consider This

6/13/2013

Next time you find yourself thinking something is "weird" consider it from another perspective and reevaluate.

Infinity and Beyond - Placenta #4

6/4/2013

Infinity and Beyond--as placenta #4 will always be remembered-- my favorite part of encapsulating placentas is feeling the energy the placenta gives and feeling, seeing, its unique identity. This placenta was of a delicate nature requiring tenderness, softness and loving. Although a specific tree didn't surface when working with this placenta a memory of a tree I have encountered did, pictured below. The veins that ran through this placenta looped and swirled around each other creating an infinity symbol. Complete joy.

So blessed to have worked with this placenta.

Frugal Grocery Tip #1 - TOFU

6/3/2013

$3.10 saved by buying regular cubed tofu for 1.99 / # versus prepackaged tofu crumbles for $5.09/12oz

If you have ever used store bought tofu crumbles you are spending about $3.00 more for you dish. Tofu crumbles are easy
to make. Buy tofu in whole packaged form put it in your freezer. Defrost when ready, squeeze out excess water, crumble into a frying pan and season appropriate for your dish. Tofu is like a sponge, frozen and defrosted tofu even more so and will soak up the flavors of your dish quite nicely.

For many tofu crumble recipes visit Yummly.

I wanted to paste the pictures because they all look amazing but couldn't figure out how to do it! Sad face.