Update on Cutting up the Plastic

Since cutting up my credit cards, losing that dependency and not borrowing from my future paycheck an incredible shift has taken place.  I physically felt the shift last Sunday but the act on my part to drop into this place was cutting up the credit cards.

Carrying all my spending money as cash has been awesome.  To physically hand over money to pay for something that I 'need' is fun.  To run out of cash a few days before payday is a bummer but it's okay. 

BUT since Sunday when I physically felt money.  I had a phone call for a job offer.  I found a job opportunity that would be perfect for my situation, applied and ranked number 2 in the written portion, my mother in law gave us veggies as I was wondering how I would get fresh produce on the table, and she said she would drop more off today (I did not ask). I was hungry at work yesterday and Summer brought me a cookie (and emotional support).  Milio's just dropped off a sub and 6 cookies, for FREE, just because. Placenta clients are coming and doula clients for friends. 

What is this?  This is trusting life.  That it's going to be awesome.  That the spiral will support us.  I want to practice yoga again, consistently, can't budget into my excess cash spending.  Went to yoga-- that day they posted a "trade" shift and now I get free yoga for cleaning.    

 Mostly what this is is: respect.  For what we actually have.  To respect our lives and the situation we are in presently goes a long way in clearing the space for movement into the direction you ask for.  Ask and you shall receive is true when there is respect for life presently. 

This is only the beginning.